Trusting

Another couple months have FLOWN by.  It is amazing how quickly time passes when your life is full of love, (and responsibilities).  We completed our home study in the beginning of March, and have met with a few attorneys to select which one we want to work with for this process.  These meetings were heavy- talking about worst case scenarios is not fun but is necessary to prepare.  We also have had several training meetings- discussing more about the process and preparing us to meet and work with a birth mom.  It all became very real and went from abstract to concrete fast.

At this point, we are putting together our letter that will go into a book and on our agency's website. This letter is addressed to birth mom's and shares about our lives.  It wasn't easy to write- how do you encapsulate everything you are into one letter- in hopes of being chosen to be the forever family for the baby within her womb? I have become increasingly aware and amazed at the selflessness of these woman- to carry a child within her- and then selfless choose a life that she believes will be better for the baby- it is amazing and humbling. That takes courage and strength.

We are hoping to get into the book in about a month- and then, we could potentially get a call anytime - although it will likely be many months.

We were hit with some financial challenges these last five weeks- one thing after another changed our situation a bit and made us realize we are in need of more assistance than we originally hoped.  This has been refining and humbling...but as friends have encouraged, adoption is something the entire body of Christ is called to be a part of- some through actually adopting, some through being prayer warriors and some through financial support.  We hope to apply for grants this summer and explore other options as well.  Although we wrestled with this, we have felt such continued peace overall that we are called- and where He has called, He is faithful.

In my times of prayer, I keep surrendering- and it feels so good- I have such joy in that- HE HOLDS THIS.  His timing and the child He has for us- designed and designated for our family - these are all ordained and orchestrated by Him.  I just want to be His vessel. I just want Him to be glorified. Less of me. MORE of Him.  Peace that passes understanding and joy in the waiting and trusting- these are good places to be.